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Wednesday, August 10, 2011

Its been a while

I sorta just didn't want to post for a bit there.
I've quietly been reading your blogs, or at least trying to keep up and commenting occasionally when I felt inspired to do so... some posts I had comments for and then was just too lazy to say anything. Sorry about that. Ive been a terrible blog friend.  :(

I feel like the past 2 weeks have been a blur. Almost like Ive been sleeping the whole time ( I definitely have been tired enough),  I've been pretty much zombie waiting for the days to pass. I can't wait for August to be over and hopefully be making an announcement to the rest of our family and friends. I think my zombie state is my way of not getting too excited but also not dwelling on my fears. kinda a zombie coping method lol.

I have a doctors appointment tomorrow and I'm pretty much demanding regular blood work the next few weeks and want to know when my next ultrasound is. I need reassurance, there's no denying it at this point.

Now onto the good things.

My boobs still hurt. lol not all the time (which of course worries me) but quite regularly. Like this morning for instance I went to put on my bra and as the fabric rubbed across my nipples I almost let out a little yelp. And yes I'm counting this as good. lol

I kinda, just kinda a little bit may be showing. Its undecided yet if its the bloat still or more, my mother in law thinks its a bump and I'm starting to think she may be right since it seems to be there all the time. The bloating has always come and gone with meals etc. She took a picture this past weekend so I will get it from her and post it later.


Nausea comes and goes with the bloat mostly. Ive been taking my nausea pills which seem to help and are possibly working to keep the actual nausea at bay. The only exception is last week I forgot to take them and felt horrid the whole next day... this also could have been food poisoning, I'm not the best cook.  lol

And as for non pregnancy things (because I really need to get in the habit of writing about other things more)...

My veggie garden is fried. We managed to get a few snow peas, a couple green beans, and a couple carrots out of it but I think the heat and lack of rain has pretty much doomed it. I water it was much as I can but its just not helping. All in all not a total failure.

I think I quite possibly may lose my money in our big brother pool soon. Remember me being so excited for it to start? lol well I paid my  $10 and got Danielle as my player, I was pretty psyched at first but I think Kalia may screw it all up for me this week and I'm gonna be out my money soon. I had such high hopes lol.

My brother in law is visiting for the week... more on that after he leaves...

and that's pretty much it. all in a nutshell. I will be back sooner than later :)


Oh and today I am 9 weeks 3 days pregnant. Heres that ultrasound from 7w3d.



Thursday, July 21, 2011

Blah ... Cheeseburgers were not a good idea

I feel gross.
Burpy, bloated kinda nauseous gross.
All because as I was leaving work this evening I thought it would be a good idea to go to mcdonalds.
AND not only did I think it was a good idea, but for some reason I thought eating a double cheeseburger and two regular cheeseburgers was a smart move.
I don't even remember when the last time I had mcdonalds or any fast food was... So I think I kinda overdid it. Now I'm exhausted and want to sleep but can't because when I close my eyes it's all gurgles. I kinda want to puke, except puking scares me. It's only happened a handful (no exaggeration) of times in my life (if we count alcohol induced then make it two handfuls), I do everything in my power to avoid it, and cry like a baby when it happens.

This week has been pretty mediocre for me, nothing really has happened. I've worked the past two evenings, and boy am I sore after. I stand for almost eight hours straight. When I'm done my feet, knees, hips, and back all ache.

Today is two days now without spotting, so hopefully that's over with. I can't help but be nervous even with hearing good news on Saturday. I'm kinda now scared about infection... But we did a swab last Wednesday so that would tell us I'm hoping.

Were going to a friends cottage this weekend. In the middle of nowhere. The closest hospital is twenty five minutes away and it's small. Hopefully we won't need it but I can't help but worry some. If the spotting stays away that will help me feel better. Hopefully I am able to relax and enjoy myself. We debated not going but I know hubby has been looking forward to it so I'm putting on my brave face.

7 more days til my ultrasound.

I think I migh be ok to try to sleep now. I'll stop my rambling for now ;)

Hope everyone is having a good week!

Monday, July 18, 2011

75 Reminders

"75 Reminders for when Times are Tough" I've been reading this blog lately; it contains lots of inspirational and thought provoking posts.
* I can't seem to link to the blog but if you check my blog list to the right this was originally posted on "Marc and Angel Hack Life"


Tho this is long I wanted to share it with you, because even on our good days I think we sometimes need these reminders :) oxo <3




1) You never know how strong you really are until being strong is the only choice you have.

2) Sometimes good things fall apart so better things can fall together.

3) You cannot change what you refuse to confront.

4)Nobody is perfect, and nobody deserves to be perfect.  Nobody has it easy.  You never know what people are going through.  Every one of us has issues.  So don’t belittle yourself or anyone else.  Everybody is fighting their own unique war.

5) Crying doesn’t indicate that you’re weak.  Since birth, it has always been a sign that you’re alive and full of potential.

6) No matter how many mistakes you make or how slow you progress, you are still way ahead of everyone who isn’t trying.
 
7) Life isn’t about waiting for the storm to pass, it’s about learning to dance in the rain.

8) Grudges are a waste of perfect happiness.  Let it go.

9) Making one person smile can change the world.  Maybe not the whole world, but their world.  Start small.  Start now.

10) Sometimes you need to distance yourself to see things clearly.

11) Never let success get to your head, and never let failure get to your heart.

12) You have to fight through some bad days to earn the best days of your life.

13) Life is 10% what happens to you and 90% how you react to it.

14) You can learn great things from your mistakes when you aren’t busy denying them.

15) Give up worrying about what others think of you.  What they think isn’t important.  What is important is how you feel about yourself.

16) When you stop chasing the wrong things you give the right things a chance to catch you.

17) When other people treat you poorly, keep being you.  Don’t ever let someone else’s bitterness change the person you are.

18) You have to accept that some things will never be yours, and learn to appreciate the things that are only yours.

19) Sometimes it’s easy to feel like you’re the only one in the world who’s struggling, who’s frustrated, or unsatisfied, or barely getting by.  But that feeling is a lie.  And if you just hold on, someone will find you and help make it better.  Because we all need a little help sometimes – someone to help us hear the music in our world.  To remind us that it won’t always be this way.  That someone is out there right now.

20) Don’t be afraid to move out of your comfort zone.  Some of your best life experiences and opportunities will transpire only after you dare to lose.

21) Sometimes we accidentally allow small problems to escalate and dominate our lives.  If we get overcharged a few cents, it is irritating, but don’t let it ruin your day.  There will always be small issues that irritate us; the secret is to be able to give them the miniscule level of importance they deserve.

22) Giving up doesn’t always mean you’re weak, sometimes it means you are strong enough and smart enough to let go. 

23) Ask yourself whether each of your relationships drags you down or lifts you up.  Surrounding yourself with positive, loving people is half the battle of living a happy, successful life.

24) Spend more time with those who make you smile and less time with those who you feel pressured to impress.

25) There are few joys in life that equal a good conversation, a good read, a good walk, a good hug, a good smile, or a good friend.

26) Don’t dwell on the past or worry about the future for too long.  Right now is life.  Live it.

27) No matter how cautiously you choose your words, someone will always twist them around and misinterpret what you say.  So just say what you need to say.

28) In order to be creative, we must lose our fear of being wrong.

29) Not getting what you want is sometimes a wonderful stroke of good luck.

30) To be great does not mean you have to dominate others.  It means you have to dominate your own potential.

31) If you are passionate about something, pursue it, no matter what anyone else thinks.  That’s how dreams are achieved.

32) If you keep doing what you’re doing, you’ll keep getting what you’re getting.

33) Forgiveness is one of the primary keys to happiness.

34) The best revenge is happiness, because nothing drives your adversaries more insane than seeing you smile.

35) Stay positive when negativity surrounds you.  Smile when others frown.  It’s an easy way to make a difference.

36) If a person wants to be a part of your life, they will make an obvious effort to do so. Don’t bother reserving a space in your heart for people who do not make an effort to stay.

37) Don’t regret intimate relationships that don’t work out.  Because they will only help you find the right partner for you, and better appreciate them for everything they do and everything they are.

38) What lies before us and behind us are tiny matters when compared to what lies within us.

39) The real world doesn’t reward perfectionists.  It rewards people who get things done.  And the only way to get things done is to be imperfect 99% of the time.

40) Never lie – not even a white lie!  When you steer away from the truth, you steer away from your soul.  Be honest, be real and tell the truth.  This awareness forces you to make better choices and be a stronger person.

41) Feelings, good and bad, always come and go.

42) Don’t get caught up in wasted potential from years past.  Potential is all we ever have.

43) We are not alone.  No matter how bizarre or embarrassed or pathetic we feel about our own situation, there will be others out there experiencing the same emotions.  When you hear yourself say “I am all alone,” it is your mind trying to sell you a lie so you will continue to feel sorry for yourself.

44) It is okay to be angry.  It is never okay to be cruel.

45) Don’t pray when it rains if you don’t pray when the sun shines.

46) Mistakes teach you important lessons.  Every time you make one, you’re one step closer to your goal.  The only mistake that can truly hurt you is choosing to do nothing simply because you’re too scared to make a mistake.

47) Money is a renewable resource.  If you lose some money, don’t sweat it.  You can always make more.  However, if you spend valuable time stressing over money, or lost opportunity, you’ll never get that time back.  Time is more valuable than money – time is the greatest constituent of life.

48) Never let people know that they got to you.  Ignore them.  Hold your head up high and pretend all their negative remarks don’t even phase you, and someday they actually won’t.

49) There is nothing to hold you back except you.  And there is only one question to ask yourself: “What would you do if you were not afraid?”  Think about it.

50) Life is way more enjoyable when you stop trying to be cool and simply focus on being yourself.

51) It’s often hard to tell just how close you are to success.

52) When you spend time worrying, you’re simply using your imagination to create things you don’t want.

53) No matter how it turns out, it always ends up just the way it should be.  Either you succeed or you learn something. Win-Win.

54) You must see things how they are instead of how you hoped, wished, or expected them to be.

55) Even when you feel like you have nothing, someone else likely has far less.  Find them and help them.  You’ll see why.

56) Laughter is the best medicine for stress.  Laugh at yourself often.  Find the humor in whatever situation you’re in.

57) If you want to feel rich, just count all the great things you have that money can’t buy.

58) Forgiving yourself is far more important than getting others to forgive you.

59) If you awake every morning with the thought that something wonderful will happen in your life today, and you pay close attention, you’ll often find that you’re right.

60) You can press forward long after you can’t.  It’s just a matter of wanting it bad enough.

61) It’s not about getting a chance, it’s about taking a chance.  You’ll rarely be 100% sure it will work.  But you can always be 100% sure doing nothing won’t work.  Sometimes you just have to go for it!

62) If it were easy everyone would do it.  This is why get rich quick schemes will never be true.  If it was so quick and easy then everyone would be millionaires.  Accomplishing great things is hard work, but well worth it.

63) Notice and cherish life’s surprises.  Just because it’s not what you were expecting, doesn’t mean it’s not everything you’ve been waiting for.

64) Be vulnerable.  Allow yourself to feel, to be open and authentic.  Tear down any emotional brick walls you have built around you and feel every exquisite emotion, both good and bad.  This is real life.  This is how you welcome new opportunities.

65) You must create and look for opportunities.  Opportunities rarely ever come knocking on the door of someone who’s not seeking them.  You have to create and seek opportunities for yourself.  You have to take the initiative to get the ball rolling and the doors opening.

66) If it’s out of your control, why fret about it?  Concentrating on things you can control is how you make good things happen.

67) Saying “no” to right people gives you the time and resources required to say “yes” to right opportunities. 

68) No matter how much progress you make there will always be the people who insist that whatever you’re trying to do is impossible. Or they may incessantly suggest that the idea or dream as a whole is utterly ridiculous because nobody really cares. When you come across these people, don’t try to reason with them. Instead, forget that they exist. They will only waste your time and energy.

69) If you spend 80% of your time focusing on the problem and only 20% on the solution, what do you think is going to happen?

70) No matter how badly you think your life may be going, or how messed up you think you are, there is at least one thing you are doing right in your life or you wouldn’t be alive reading this.

71) A problem is a chance for you to learn.

72) The greatest struggle is to be something different from what the average man is.

73) In times of great stress, it’s always wise to keep busy, to plow your anger and frustration into something positive.

74) One thing is for sure: Regardless of the situation, life goes on.

75) Everyone wants a perfect ending.  But over the years I’ve learned that some of the best poems don’t rhyme, and many great stories don’t have a clear beginning, middle, or end.  Life is about not knowing, embracing change, and taking a moment and making the best of it without knowing what’s going to happen next.

Monday, July 11, 2011

Owie owie owie

:( I am a giant stripped lobster.

I decided to spend my day off today lounging in the pool over at Hubby's Aunts house. It was great. Such a good way to spend a hot day. I usually do not burn much, maybe my face might get a little red but it usually fades after a day. Well usually I am not hanging out by water when tanning, and I kinda forgot it attracts the suns rays... And now I am a red hot mess. And to make it worse I have stripes... Apparently I must have been sitting on an angle, because the left half of my face is turning bright red, and the right side of my face and neck are super white... I have stripes down most of my body too... I don't remember it being so hard to get an even tan when I was younger. Evil evil sun.

Pictures to follow because it is too horrible to keep to myself :(

Oh and I am almost out of aloe vera.... This is gonna suck.

Wednesday, June 15, 2011

Wrong number

Someone called me today (I forget where she said she was from) to wish me congratulations on the arrival of my new baby boy.... ?

The conversation went some thing like this:

Me: hello
Lady: Hi (all cheerful) I'm "name" calling from "wherever"
Me: ummm ok?
Lady: I'm just calling to congratulate and see how things are going with you and your new baby?
Me: ummm you have the wrong number
Lady: is this not 1234567? (my number)
Me: ya that's my number
Lady: so you didn't just have a baby boy?
Me: no I have not just had a baby (getting slightly irritated that she still thinks I'm who she's trying to congratulate)
Lady: have you had a baby recently?
Me: NO. I do not have any children
Lady: oh well I must have the wrong number then.

YOU THINK?? Seriously? Me saying she had the wrong number in the first place should have been the her first clue.

So after having the days I had this week already this is the phone call I get today. Really?
I was nice but seriously irritated and could have done without that call. I guess it coulda been worse, she coulda called yesterday.

Friday, June 3, 2011

I know I'm slightly random at times

I was just looking at my blog and decided that it is a mess. A random mess. I apologize for that but I can partially explain, first of all I am generally on a day to day basis fairly random, the things I do, the things I think, all random. It is one of my qualities that can rub Hubby the wrong way at times, it's also a quality I think keeps things interesting ;)

I feel the need to share this with you so that you do not think I am someone struggling to find a blog identity. I've noticed as I've browsed other blogs a lot seem to focus on a main topic. I started this blog to give myself an outlet, an outlet for all the different emotions and thoughts I have. In-between the difficult stuff I write about the fun things, simply because I do not know if i could even read a blog that only had troubled thoughts. Plus I usually am an optimistic person, I have heard the phrase "your always smiling" many times :)

Last night I saw the movies Bridesmaids with MOH and the rest of the bridal party. It was such a cute movie, and really funny too. There were a few moments in it that hit a little close to home for me (it's supposed to be a comedy), one line in particular was said "This pity party is over" - combined with some of the other dialogue it made me think. I've been feeling pretty low lately and I just can't seem to shake it, I've been holding back about blogging these things but I've decided I am just going to get it over with. Blogging after all has made me feel much better when dealing with other things, for instance the miscarriage. I felt like a weight had been lifted as soon as I wrote about it. I have decided that in an effort to move forward I will try this outlet again and see if it is the missing piece. So maybe not today or tomorrow but very shortly once I figure out a way to get it all out without seeming like a total rant I will.

So thank you in advance

<3

Thursday, May 26, 2011

Random Thursday thoughts

Today is Thursday and do you know what that means? It means it's the start of the weekend :) Hubby is lucky enough to not work Fridays and with myself not working (well everyday is like the weekend for me ;)) the weekend starts now! (I do not know why I felt the need to have an exclamation point there, it's not that exciting...)

Lol anyways we had ourselves a nice little BBQ tonight, we have been bbqing a lot lately which is nicer than slaving away over the stove. BBQ food just tastes better. I would like to get a BBQ cookbook so I can learn how to cook a few more things, I like variety and switching things up, Hubby not so much. He would be happy with meat and potatoes every night.

My garden continues to grow, I swear everyday things are getting taller and new sprouts are making their appearance. I can't wait to be able to pick something from the garden and eat it :) maybe we can just buy a house in the country and be farmers ;) or not.

I have been trying my bestest to exercise on a daily basis, I'm not very good at it. As in I always forget or I will remember to do it but decide not to. I need some motivation and right now fitting into my clothes that are too tight just is not enough. You would think it would be but nope it's not helping any. I just don't have the willpower to go through with it. I'm thinking of maybe joining a exercise class or something like that. I figure if I join then once in the class I will complete the class... Cause that's another problem I have, I start exercising and give up way too soon. Hubby's uncle owns one of the local gyms so I can get a membership for cheap (if for anything at all), I feel like a workout buddy would be helpful too... I need to find someone. My other thought is something I saw someone else do... I could weigh myself and post my measurements for you all to see. Then continue to post updates for my progress and if you see I'm not following up then give me trouble! I'm seriously considering this one, I'm pretty sure someone I know did that on Facebook last year or so. It would be easier to do it here since you don't know me, no embarrassment.

Thursday is the day the free local newspaper is delivered (the regular one is insanely expensive), I always look forward to the paper because of all the flyers that come with it. I am a flyer junkie. Even when I have no money to spend I love to look at the flyers. I saw something real interesting in the Walmart flyer... So I thought I should share it with you... Seriously? Bathing suits for dogs? Do people really buy those?? I had a good laugh and then seriously considered buying one to make my dog wear for fun, so ya I'm sure someone else is thinking the same thing. Don't worry I'm not gonna buy one lol.

Did you watch American Idol last night? We watched it, we figured we watched every other episode that there was no point in stopping just because one of our favorites didn't make it into the top two. I was holding my breath Tuesday hoping the rumors that Haley was going to have to replace Lauren were true, but no such luck. Out of the two finalists I'm glad Scotty won, even though he kinda bores me. He was after all MiniMe's choice for the win so I decided that as a good big sister I would cheer for him too. They had the show packed full of stars that's for sure, I was pretty impressed. Do they always have that many star performances on the finale?

Oh speaking of shows, I occasionally will watch "The Talk" which has that Julie girl who hosts Big Brother on it. Anyways they were talking about reality shows and kept dropping "Big brother" into the mix. Lol just a little free advertising. It made me excited to think about that starting again soon. I think the start of July? Pretty excited :)

Oh and did you know the dollar store sells ovulation predictor kits? I knew they sold pregnancy tests.. But ovulation kits? If they work I suppose that would be a he'll of a lot cheaper than buying the big name brands. In case your wondering I did not buy any. I thought about it. Technically we are still "not trying", so buying a kit would be more towards trying. I tell ya tho this not trying is pretty stressful, I'm constantly wondering if maybe we "accidentally" conceived again and secretly hoping we did. It's driving me nuts. I didn't temp this month (I did last month cause my body has been so screwy), I'm thinking of doing it again next month tho just to keep tabs on what's happening. I'm still not convinced everything is back to normal, but I can't really do anything cause if I were to tell the doctor she would probably laugh when I tell her were not really trying but it's just a hunch.

And so aside from the fact that my birthday is in 3 days I have nothing else to ramble about. So I will leave you with this picture of our dog stealing a drink out of Hubby's freshly pour glass of water. Haha she is sneaky like that, he sat down to pet her and when he was looking out the window she snuck a sip. Once she did it once he figured why stop her and I decided to take a pic lol.

Have a good weekend everyone :)

Tuesday, May 24, 2011

I can't sleep

It's 1:05 am and I'm laying here in bed awake. Wide awake.
I guess that's what I get for taking a nap today. I'm so bored right now! I've looked at all my regular sites I read, creeped almost everyone on my Facebook, caught up on all my blog reading... I even took a break and tried to sleep but nothing. Hubby and the dog are hogging the bed so that's not making this any easier. I've considered going downstairs but then what would I do? If I watched tv I probably would just wake hubby and he has to get up for work in a few hours, so not a good idea.
I don't even have anything substantial to blog about since I already did my weekly summary.
Well I guess I'm gonna start randomly googling things until I get tired. Hope everyone is having sweet dreams!

Thursday, May 12, 2011

Ahhh summer I feel you coming

I am currently sitting out on my back deck with a giant ice water, wearing shorts and a tube top, dog at my side, listening to radio streaming thru our iPad and searching for some awesome blogs to add to my reading list. The sun is shining, it's 21 degrees ahhh practicLly perfect with the exception of the 2 wasps that I've just spotted...

Wednesday, May 4, 2011

I just realized it was Wednesday...

I have gone most of the day thinking today was Tuesday for some reason.... Now that I realize its not I kinda feel cheated outta my Wednesday!

Anyways I have been watching my stats lately and have noticed my number of readers seem to be growing :) I feel kinda silly but that makes me happy lol

But I am wondering who are you people? I only have 3 followers whom I believe 2 are from the states, and 1 Aussie ... The rest of you are strangers.

According to my stats I have at least one reader in Canada, Germany, Denmark and Singapore! I realize these could all be random people but I invite you to follow and make yourselves known :)

And that is all for now, I need to go start dinner!

Tuesday, April 19, 2011

Update not sick

Just a quick update about the temp I had. I didn't get sick and after a long 32 days it became obvious I was not pregnant either.

I'm disappointed, even with having just lost my job I was kind of hoping for some good news. I honestly do not know how people get through the torture of actually trying month after month without success. I can honestly say I think about it at least once a day and am saddened by the fact that I had such an amazing thing taken from me. We haven't been "trying" as in I don't check the calender and schedule in the baby dancing. I am just aware of what is happening to my body and keeping track of little signs through out the month. I can't help it if at certain times Hubby or I seem to be more in the mood to dance, and that those moods line up on the calender ;) I am going to take my temp regularly this month just to be sure I am in fact ovulating. I'd really rather know exactly what is going on and understand my body.

Cousin 2 finally has some answers about her 2 year long attempt. They think she has PCOS, her cycles are too irregular and when she has gotten pregnant they think the lining was too weak and caused both of her miscarriages.  I think she has the next month to do a few more tests/tracking and then the doctor is going to give her clomid to help regulate. I'm really happy for her to finally have some answers and to have those answers not be the worst case scenario.

Cousin 1 has been put on bed rest for possibly the rest of her pregnancy. I don't have the full update on that one. Looks like they are going to schedule her in for a c section 1-2 weeks early as well, so early July she should be meeting her little babe.

And thats enough baby talk for me. I need to shower; I've caught my breath now from my morning work out... that I am dragging my ass to do each day. If I'm going to be home I may as well look good ;)

Tuesday, April 5, 2011

Getting sick?

Took my temp today at work, 37.8... Either I'm getting sick or I'm pregnant again. My temp was high 37-low 38s for about a week before testing last time. Not really expecting anything else for about a week so I guess we will see what happens. Kinda sniffling a bit, could just be a cold... But they don't usually make my head feel like it's boiling, whereas being preg last time did. I'm trying not to think too much into it but wanted to track it somewhere.