Long weekend recap

Long weekends. Love them. Despite the fact that recently our long weekends seem to be booked solid with events. No resting and relaxation for us. This one was no exception.

This Saturday MOH married hubby's cousin :) it was a beautiful day lots of smiles and love all around.

The celebrations began Thursday with the redecorating of the hall, followed by more decorating Friday, manicures and pedicures for the ladies while the men were golfing. Rehearsal was Friday evening followed by food and drinks at Hubby's aunt and uncles house.

Saturday was busy! Hair and makeup bright and early! Btw I don't wear much makeup and am kicking myself for not getting a good pic of how amazing my face looked! Seriously! I've never had makeup done that good before! It was supposed to rain but the sun was hot all day. We had so much fun.

Hubby had informed me that people were congratulating him at the church... Which is odd because we had not announced anything worth congratulating. At the hall the same happened to me. It became obvious we had a leak. We didn't want to be a distraction during someone else's wedding. Family didn't see it that way as Hubby's uncle (father of the groom) announced our pregnancy for us during his speech!!! I was soo embarrassed. Relieved it was out there since 90% of the family appeared to already know but still embarrassed. Apparently those who hadn't heard were already wondering because I am showing and am usually quite thin. When I gain 5 pounds it is noticable. They noticed.

So our announcement was made a day earlier than planned. Not too sure yet how MOH felt about that... Everyone else felt it was another reason to celebrate... She has been funny with all the wedding stress anyway so I've had a difficult time figuring her out lately.

I have a few fun pictures to share but I'll do that in a day or so. My mother in law is here visiting for the week.

Hope everyone had a great weekend :)

Long Weekend recap

Happy Fourth of July to my American friends :) Hope you are enjoying your day off today... I have to work... But I also did have Friday off while you were at work ;)  lol
So Friday being that it was Canada day we enjoyed a nice BBQ with swimming (for some, I didn't feel like it) at Hubby's cousin's house. This is one of those second cousins but because they are Italian everyone is just a "cousin" lol. Anyhoo we had a great time, the weather was gorgeous, everyone wore their red and white clothes, we even put on a few patriotic temporary tattoos (one of the little kids had on 8 by the end of the day). The food was great. I BBQ but my BBQ never tastes as good as when other people do it... I must figure out what I am missing ... lol Hubby and I were exhausted by the end of the day. Good sleep was had that night for sure. Oh and there was firework right in our own backyard this year! We opted not to go down to the water (its always crazy busy) and got to watch the neighbors put on their own display (which may or may not have been illegal since I'm pretty sure the bilaw states you need to be 100ft from any houses...)

Oh and Friday I attempted to do my first ever french braid on my bangs... its kind of sad looking but not bad considering ;) It looked cute from a front view... that could just be me ;)

It kinda looks like a braid? Maybe... ? lol

Saturday was kind of a relax at home, do a few chores, work on a few projects kind of day. I'm trying to make a cake topper for MOH's wedding cake... its proving to be a challenging task and I hope she likes it. If she doesn't want to use it I understand too lol. It was during my time working on the cake topper that I got the urge to test and as I've already told you it was positive! I called the doctors office today and I go in tomorrow to confirm :) I'm trying to remain positive and not worry much. Positive thoughts, positive thoughts, positive thoughts*** lol Oh and I did tell Hubby later that afternoon, I waited until he seemed kinda liked he liked me again and then told him I wanted to show him what Id been doing all afternoon. lol. Its funny when he sees the stick, he reacted the same last time too, doesn't say too much. Just sort of looks at it, and looks at me with a slight smile on his face, and a slight twinkle in his eye. It takes him a day or two before he really gets excited, I think its processing time lol. He actually brought it up yesterday, said something about the "what ifs" I think he's trying not to get to excited this time because of last time. Positive thoughts, positive thoughts, positive thoughts***

Of course I'm gonna show you ;) That sucker appeared in less than 10 seconds!

Sunday was HOT!! OMG sweating after a 15 minute walk with the dog at 10:30am kinda hot. I didnt even check the weather channel because I simply did not want to know. After taking the dog out I decided to head over to the mall to pick up my fabulous new shoes that I ordered for MOH's wedding. The air conditioning in the mall felt amazing (it wasn't until yesterday evening we finally turned on our central air). When I got home again I found hubby and the animals all hanging out in the basement to get some relief from the heat, and after being home for about maybe 10 minutes I received a bbm from MOH saying they were at Hubby's Aunt's house swimming in the pool. Yay for pools!! You didn't need to ask us twice we jumped up and quickly changed into out suits and spent the whole afternoon lounging in the pool which was followed by another awesome BBQ. I think its offical, summer is here. Two BBQ's and pool "parties" in 3 days = summer :) Oh and after yesterday Hubby decided it was time to turn the air on. We had been putting it off since we get a good breeze through the house and the basement is cool but we are gonna need it if there's more days like yesterday.

Ta Da! I LOVE them :D !! 

So that's my weekend recap :) I start my new job offically this evening.. kinda nervous about that, and I've got that appointment tomorrow... Positive thoughts, positive thoughts, positive thoughts*** :)

Hope everyone had a good weekend!

Happy long weekend :)

For everyone who gets a one, Happy long weekend! And if you don't get a long weekend where your from may I suggest taking one anyways? Lol you know you wanna ;)

I've made my pasta salad, beers are in the fridge, I've got my red and white ensemble and I'm ready to celebrate Canada day :) were going to a cousins for a little BBQ and pool party and might go check out the fireworks later too (btw perk of living so close to the border I can watch fireworks today and Monday!)

Hope everyone has a fun and safe weekend!





p.s. I bought a pregnancy test... It's sitting on the shelf under the bathroom sink. I'm tempted to use it but won't just in case this is just another wonky cycle. If AF doesn't show by Sunday I'm breaking that sucker out!

Cirque du Soleil ~ Quidam

Horray!
Last night I went to Ottawa with my mom, Baby G, and the foster girl (random girl that lives at my moms now ever since Baby G brought her there). My mom had bought us all tickets for the Cirque du Soleil show for our birthdays :) it was soo cool. I only wish it was longer (cause 2 hours isn't long enough haha).

They didnt allow any sort of pictures to be taken, although Im sure I coulda got a few since I had my ipod and it doesnt have a flash but I didnt want to risk it. There were a few random flashes going off but security quickly found them and that was the end of that.

I did buy a program since I wanted a few pics to remember the night, and so I've scanned it into my computer to share with you :)

The German Wheel - one of my favourites; he got this thing spinning so fast

Boum Boum - I'm not sure about this guy, he showed up a few times and always seemed angry, almost evil

Diabolos - These girls were pretty cool, they had those spindles doing all sorts of moves

Aerial Contortion in silk - I love love love any act like this; this one was more artistic with not as many crazy moves

Aerial hoops - another fave; these girls were so cool to watch

Statue - a quiet slow moving act, the positions they were balanced in was unreal, we could see their abs shaking as they held each other in the poses

Cloud swing - this had some pretty moves as she swing thru the air on the cord

The Target- random in between act, fun to watch

This is one of the first scenes before the girl leaves home; the story is a little hard to follow

If you ever have the chance to see the show I highly recommend it! It was soo good :)

Goodbye May

May is over. Done. Gone. Finished.

I feel like the past 3 months have been a blurr, its been almost 2 months now that I have been unemployed. Crazy thought. My bank account is definitely hurting. If I was still pregnant I would be going on 6 months, thats another crazy thought that I try not to think of but every now and then those crazy dreams come back and I wake up reminded of the loss.

But today is sunny and warm (currently 21'C but according to the weather people it feels like 29') I think there was even a UV warning  :)  and so on a lovely day like today we will have only lovely thoughts.

We had a nice weekend, nothing too eventful. I barely remember Friday but I'm pretty sure we stayed home all day lol (is it normal for someone my age to be that forgetful??).
Saturday we went shopping for my birthday present, no surprise gift here! I had been telling hubby that I wanted a new point and shoot camera for some time now so he took me with him to ensure I got what I wanted. Well scratch that idea, we got there and I all of a sudden became overwhelmed with guilt and panic at the thought of spending over $200 on the camera I had been in love with for so long. After much debate I settled for a very sleek cute looking cheapie that cost only $150 after tax and that I tried to convince myself I would love. We bought it from Blacks and lucky we did because they have a 15 day satisfaction guarantee. If you don't love it you can bring it back and that is exactly what we did yesterday.  I almost did love the cheaper camera but the two problems I could not get past where the fact that it took a micro sd memory card (which is practically unheard of), and when you tried to take a picture it took a very long time to get the shot.

My new camera :)

So my new camera is a Sony Cybershot DSC-W570 and its a pretty violet colour. I love that its tiny and can travel with me everywhere I go in my purse. There have been soo many times that I have been out somewhere and missed an awesome picture of something just because I don't have my big camera on me. I do not have room to carry it around. So next upgrade will be my big camera body :) I will stay in the Cannon family for that one since I have already invested in some pricey lenses. I would even have preferred Cannon for my point and shoot but they really are just too much money for a secondary play time camera.

Saturday evening we went over to Hubby's cousin's house for a nice bbq. Have I given them any blog names yet? I'm going to have to think of something... since the two of them are very reoccurring persons in our daily lives. This is the cousin that is getting married to my Maid of Honor from our wedding.. I suppose she could just be known as MOH... hmmm.. I will have to think of that one. Hubby's cousin has a nickname so it will be even harder to think of a blog name for him.  After dinner they surprised me with a nice little birthday cake. Which was really sweet of them. In previous years we have celebrated in a triple birthday bash for myself, Hubby's brother whose birthday was yesterday and Hubby's cousin whose birthday is today. But with my birthday being the Sunday and Hubby's brother not living in this town anymore we all did our own thing this year.

Sunday (My birthday) we spent a few hours in the afternoon at my pseudo Aunt D's house visiting with her and my uncle and cousin and her family. I mentioned this pesudo family in one of my earlier posts, they pretty much helped raise me since my mom was a young single mother. After a nice visit with them we went over to my moms house and had Chinese food for dinner. I finished off the leftovers today for breakfast :) yumm. While at my moms I finally found out the highly anticipated birthday surprise. If I had of been able to go there back in March for BabyG's birthday I would have known already what it was since it was a shared gift but she was good and didn't tell me. My mom got us front row seats to Cirque du Soleil's Quidam show in Ottawa :) I am super excited!! 

And now I have to go buy some groceries and enjoy the sun!  I'm going to try to leave you with a video of the trailer for the Quidam show (I've watched a few on you tube so far)

Has it really been over a week since I last blogged?
I feel like the week has just flown by, yet I am not even sure of what it was I did....hmm... Lets see...

My garden after we planted it :)

Two Fridays ago hubby and I built me a little 4x2 planter box (all I did was drill 2 nails in but that counts) for my first veggie garden. I have spent almost every day checking on it and watering it when it was not raining. I planted some carrots, green onions, green peppers, snow peas, beans, chives, basil and oregano. The snow peas were the first the make an appearance, just this past Friday, only 7 days after planting I noticed 3 little sprouts poking through the soil :) yippee! I was so excited :D  and my excitement totally saved the dogs butt from trouble (the reason I noticed the sprouts was because when I went to let the dog in it became obvious she had tangled her lead around the post beside the garden and thought climbing through the garden was the best way back to the house). Today I went out to water the garden and plant a few flowers and noticed that all but the green peppers were starting to make appearances. Hopefully they keep growing :)


The man shower/ car rally we went to for Hubby's cousin last weekend was a lot of fun. I got a little bummed out when I overheard someone saying they hoped their nausea etc was pregnancy but that quickly passed as we raced around town to complete our tasks. Unfortunately my team did not win but we had fun with friends and family anyways.

Last Monday and Tuesday I had orientation shifts at my old job (the one before the most recent), it was kinda nicety be back there but at the same time made me a little sad to be taking that step backwards in my career. I made it clear to the manager that I was going to keep looking. Working in a retirement home just is not my thing, it's slow, nothing happens, all you do is give pills to people so they don't forget and then they go back to their little mini apartments for the rest of the day. I figure if a psw can take an extra course to do it then it's not for me. So the job search continues. I did get one call back from an actual nursing home, and the words they used in the message make me wonder if the experiences had are what's slowing the job search.... I've been exposed to the management world and even tho it clear in my resume I'm willing to work anything, maybe they think I'm looking for something more...

Oh well, the rest of the week was beautiful weather. It only rained over night or for brief periods and the sun came out a lot. I worked away in the back yard digging up weeds that were starting to cover the stone walk way. I tried to spent as much as I could outside.

Saturday we went over to Hubby's aunts house, which is pretty much the gathering location for family members when in town. This weekend was the annual prosciutto competition for the men and bridal shower for my former maid of honor (she's marrying Hubby's cousin). Family started arriving early in the day so we went over to meet up with them around dinner, just as Hubby's dad, brother and step sister arrived. His brother stayed at our place for the night but most of the others stayed at his Aunts, their house is pretty big I think they've had up to 20 people sleeping over if not more at a time.

Yesterday was the bridal shower. Now to clarify these bridal showers are not like the ones most people are used to. We don't sit around in someone's living room having snacks and playing games, we rent out the Italian club and have a more formal mid afternoon meal. Oh ya in case I haven't mentioned it Hubby's family is Italian. So everyone breaks out their fancy party dresses (or buys new ones) and we eat. The first one I experienced was a little weird for me but now it's normal lol and actually a lot of fun. Everyone just socializes and has a good time. The bride to be sits at the front of the room after her meal and with the help of her bridesmaids in a well thought out strategic operation opens gifts. My job was pre opening wrapping paper and passing the gifts, without the pre open it would take much too long, there were 80 people there. My bridal shower was slightly different at my request. We used the hall but played a few games and had snacks instead of a meal.

So that pretty much wraps up my week! At least highlights the key points. Today we are just taking it easy and enjoying our last day of the extended weekend (I love long holiday weekends).

Why does Jennifer hate Haley??

Seriously?? I do not understand why Jennifer simply cannot just give Haley praise for her songs... Why week after week does she have to just rip into her.

(yes this is another American idol post)

Please tell me that I am not the only one who notices that other contestants can sing shit songs and be told they were amazing, that other contestants take stupid risks with song choices and are praised. Yet Haley switches it up and is made to feel like an idiot.. I felt bad for her tonight seriously. I wanted to reach through the screen and slap Jennifer...

I feel like Randy and Jennifer have pre decided in their minds what type of singer Haley needs to be and that maybe it might not match with what she's trying to do. I think she has been doing better and better each week, I like that she is taking the risks and not singing the same thing week after week. If I could vote (Canadians can't) I would want be giving my votes to her for showing her true abilities, she switches it up with the styles without going too far away from her natural raunchy sound. For instance Scotty bores me... He is twang country that's it. Guarantee if he makes a cd all his songs are going to have the exact same sound.

Look at some of the top selling artists and long lasting artists right now, how many of them sing the exact same sound over and over again.

Whoa really unnessicary for Randy to just diss Haley like that saying the best performance of the first round was a tie between the other three... Seriously are they trying to make her cry and fuck it up? I'm once again writing as I'm watching and getting kind of mad.

Ok Round two now they love her.... Steven Tyler is consistent I think he actually likes her, the other two frustrate me. THERE WAS NOTHING WRONG WITH HER FIRST SONG!!!

So on that note my take on the final four:

Haley - In my opinion she's the best performer and vocalist left. Unique tone, seldom goes off key, passionate, hits the high notes just as good as the lows. I love her for all the same reasons I (and most others) love Adele, she's just a little more kick ass.

James - Good performer and vocalist but has pitch problems regularly. Theatrically the best. Some weeks I think he's great and others he annoys me. There is not too much depth to his voice and I think that's what I don't like at times.

Lauren - She's fairly generic, I'm confused is she a country artist or no? I feel like she's not really challenging herself and maybe too young to know yet who she really wants to be as an artist (yes I realize that I said before how I liked how Haley switches it up, but when Lauren does it I don't feel it make sense and confuses me). She's definitely a great singer but just doesn't have the wow factor for me.

Scotty - I think I already said how he bores me. Great country singer and I can understand his appeal to the fans who are more country lovers, me not so much I enjoy country to a certain degree it can't be too twangy and has to still vocally be strong enough to keep me interested. I feel post Idol he might have a hard time standing out from the crowd once the Idol fame calms.

I don't know who will go home, they are all so different it will depend on whose style has the biggest following watching Idol... My pick of who I would like to see go is Scotty.


And now I need to go watch last nights episode of The Voice, we had to pvr it cause Hubby had an allergic reaction to something and we spent the night in the ER (everything is fine)

:)

Weekend Recap

Happy Tuesday :)

I've had a fairly busy past couple of days, which is actually pretty nice since I've been bored out of my mind recently lol.

The weekend started with Friday of course since Hubby gets a 3 day weekend every day. I had a nice lunch at a nearby sushi and teppanyaki restaurant with a friend I haven't seen in a couple months. We laughed tons (both at each others stories and inability to use the chop sticks), and ate tons. It was all you can eat for $12 :) good deal.

Friday evening was spent on bridal duties! This September Hubby and I are both attendants in his cousin's wedding. His cousin's fiance was my maid of honor for our wedding, we've grown pretty close over the years. Her bridal shower is in two weeks so all the ladies got together at Hubby's aunts house and packed the fudge we all made earlier in the week. There was soo much fudge! Eight ladies making at least two batches each, one of the bridesmaids batches didn't turn out. I made three batches and had one of them not form properly.. it still tasted great but we couldn't package it. I made a mint chocolate batch (too sticky), a pink batch (bridal colour) and a chocolate marshmallow batch. :) Not bad considering I've never made fudge before. I didn't get home until after midnight on Friday, we had dinner and drinks and played a few games. It was a lot of fun.

So much fudge!

Saturday was spent cleaning up before I had to drive just over an hour to a friend's wedding reception. She had originally been married in September while still pregnant, it was a very small ceremony with a few close family members only. This weekend she had her official celebration, I think with about 100 or so people. I served as both a guest as well as the official photographer, money was tight and since I take pictures as a hobby and have the editing software I offered my services. I got the chance to see a few friends that I haven't seen in a while, it was a lot of fun. There was a little drama amongst the bridal party lol but fun.

Sunday of course was Mothers Day. Instead of us driving to see my mom at her place and her having to make dinner we offered to take her out. So we went to Montanas. My mom has celiac's disease plus a few other food interferences so Montanas is one of the few places she can actually eat. Luckily they have great food so no one was disappointed. I absolutely love their goat cheese penne. I love goat cheese in general. I think I'm going to try cooking with it, my mom claims its not that hard to do.

All in all it was a great weekend. Tiring, but lots of fun :) This weekend coming up also should have a few fun points with the grooms man shower aka car rally. Until then I will keep trying to be busy hopefully the weather will stay nice that always helps.

And then there were 5

WARNING - American Idol spoiler. Do not read if you plan on watching late.

I am writing this as we are watching so it may end up being a bit of a play by play.

So we are still watching Idol, despite my disappointment that America sent two of my top three favourites home. I'm still a little baffled by Pia, but I understand Paul. As much as I love his voice he just was not singing the right songs. I'm sure both of them will be back with records of their own and so I look forward to hearing what they come up with.

So that leaves Haley. She reminds me of my childhood, listening to my mothers Melissa Ethridge, and Sass Jordan c.ds She has that raw strong woman quality about her voice which I prefer over bubble gum pop. I tend to listen to a wide variety of music styles but always go back to I guess more alternative styles.

And now we wait.... They are giving the results.... So far Haley is safe :)

Whoa bottom 3 is Jacob, Casey and Scotty :) I think this is the first time I have agreed 100% with the bottom 3. I really think it should be Jacob going home next. Seriously I do not see him becoming the type of artist you would hear on the radio, he's too gospel which I find funny after seeing his mug shot ;) Ya that's right did you know that kid had to beg a judge to excuse his probation so he could be on Idol.

 And scratch that apparently Casey is going home! (good call Maria) I knew he wouldn't make it much longer but I thought for sure he would get another week in. Well I'm slightly annoyed Jacob is still around...

As long as either Haley or James win then all will be right in the world ;)

And yes I have been so bored lately and having a bit of bloggers block that I did infact just blog a play by play of American Idol ;) I do have a more serious post I am working on that I will be posting soon, and hopefully life will be getting a little more exciting soon so I will have more to write!

Idol, Bitches, and generalized crappy days

I had a crappy day at work today, consisting of a mini breakdown at approx 10am. I was for lack of better terms "thrown under the bus" by a co worker. This tends to happen regularly with this person, she is constantly trying to achieve power and the upper hand and will toss you aside if it will make her look better. To make it worse she rarely knows what she is actually speaking about, she's very good and taking a small piece of information and spinning it to sound like she is an expert. She blatantly will lie and take credit for things she has no claim too, leaks information, and will go behind your back to whisper in the big bosses ears whenever the mood strikes.

How are you supposed to deal with someone like this? Seriously I am struggling with standing my ground and trying not to cross any lines. I have to bite my tongue often for fear I will be reprimanded for something I had nothing to do with. This has already happened to me twice, both times I am sure originated from her. How do you defend yourself without trashing someone... I bite my tongue and take it. Hopefully I don't snap, I have to be careful because now I am strictly communicating via email so there is a paper trail. Can't be caught being rude ;)

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American Idol is down to the bottom 11 for the 2nd week in a row. Last week's elimination Casey was saved by the judges wild card vote. I'm not sure if I agree with that but whatever... Something about that beard....he almost seems like that ugly loser kid who grew a beard and suddenly had a claim to fame. Haha I swear I'm not a shallow bitch ;) his voice is decent enough but still not sure if he was justifiable for the save.

My favorites still are Paul and Pia, their performances this week were not their strongest and had no real wow factor. Hopefully it was enough for them both to be safe since this week two contestants will be going home. I think Elton John songs are just not their strong points.

Pia is more like a Mariah Carey, Christina Aguilera type singer. Her voice is so strong and beautiful.

I absolutely love Paul's voice. It is so distinct and unique, not to mention sexy ;), I'm a sucker for a good acoustic song and he has the perfect voice to go with a guitar. He reminds me a little of James Blunt mixed with Kings of Leon. Oh and that smile!

Honorable mentions this week include Stefano, James, Thia and Haley.

I really am not a Stefano fan, simply can not stand him. Sure he's got a good voice but really how far would he go? I can not honestly see him having a mainstream career in the long run. However tonight singing Tiny Dancer was in my opinion the 2nd best of the night.

James gets a mention simply because of his ability to work the crowd. His voice is not that exciting but he is one of the best performers of the season. I think it will be I interesting to see if he makes it to the end and gets to perform with Steven Tyler ( I am an Aerosmith diehard from early childhood).

Thia... Oh Thia... Really I have some sort of dislike for her.. Not too sure why but I will admit she has a great voice and sang Daniel with emense passion and nailed it. So for this week I will like her ;)

Haley! Way to finish the show with a bang! She rocked Benny and the Jets! Best performance of the night by far. Her voice is so raunchy and powerful she just killed it. I've never really paid much attention to her before today... Might have to keep an eye on that one.



Can't wait for "The Voice" to stand this April.

She flies thru the air with the greatest of ease

Yesterday's meeting was informative yet unsuccessful as we hit a dead end with our plan. There were a lot of great ideas, but unfortunately the product developers are not able to proceed with our plans until the software bigwig agrees to look at our plan. Sound confusing? That's all the details I can give ;) basically we use a software that could be improved with this plan of ours. If successful it would be a very big deal for long term care facilities. We have all the connections and templates it's a matter of the software agreeing to try it. Blah.
The doctor is still pretty convinced that we will make it happen, I'll just keep working until needed again I suppose.
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Cute side note my mini me sister has been texting me non stop for the past 24hours; one of her birthday gifts was a cell phone! As much as I enjoy the texts, shes 13! Geez.. Most the texts are followed by "hehehe" which makes me laugh each time.
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So my adventure today consisted on myself and my mom driving to Montreal and taking flying trapeze lessons! My mom has done it a few times, and I had been making fun of her for it but decided to check it out. It was hard! My muscles hurt sooo much, and I'm pretty sure I pulled a muscle in my butt. The class was just over 2 hours, the first was spent practicing more basic moves such as pulling your legs onto the bar and swinging upside down. You have to time things just right, and keep good posture for the harder moves to work. My mom was practicing more advanced moves, shes actually pretty good. Once you learned posture and technique they brought in the catcher and you had to swing from your bar and they caught you while swinging on another. I am pleased to say I successfully did it! :) I was so nervous and scared but it was fun. Might even go again.

Happy St Pattys Day :)

So I spent the first half of the day totally oblivious that it was St Patricks day! Happy St patties day everyone :) and Happy Birthday to one of most awesome people I know pseudo cousin #1 (her parents helped my mom raise me, really she was just like a big sister).

I'm sure everyone is out drinking green beer and all that fun jazz :) I am spending the night cozied on my couch with Hubby playing angry birds and watching American Idol. Were boring like that but I'm ok with it ;)