Goodbye May

May is over. Done. Gone. Finished.

I feel like the past 3 months have been a blurr, its been almost 2 months now that I have been unemployed. Crazy thought. My bank account is definitely hurting. If I was still pregnant I would be going on 6 months, thats another crazy thought that I try not to think of but every now and then those crazy dreams come back and I wake up reminded of the loss.

But today is sunny and warm (currently 21'C but according to the weather people it feels like 29') I think there was even a UV warning  :)  and so on a lovely day like today we will have only lovely thoughts.

We had a nice weekend, nothing too eventful. I barely remember Friday but I'm pretty sure we stayed home all day lol (is it normal for someone my age to be that forgetful??).
Saturday we went shopping for my birthday present, no surprise gift here! I had been telling hubby that I wanted a new point and shoot camera for some time now so he took me with him to ensure I got what I wanted. Well scratch that idea, we got there and I all of a sudden became overwhelmed with guilt and panic at the thought of spending over $200 on the camera I had been in love with for so long. After much debate I settled for a very sleek cute looking cheapie that cost only $150 after tax and that I tried to convince myself I would love. We bought it from Blacks and lucky we did because they have a 15 day satisfaction guarantee. If you don't love it you can bring it back and that is exactly what we did yesterday.  I almost did love the cheaper camera but the two problems I could not get past where the fact that it took a micro sd memory card (which is practically unheard of), and when you tried to take a picture it took a very long time to get the shot.

My new camera :)

So my new camera is a Sony Cybershot DSC-W570 and its a pretty violet colour. I love that its tiny and can travel with me everywhere I go in my purse. There have been soo many times that I have been out somewhere and missed an awesome picture of something just because I don't have my big camera on me. I do not have room to carry it around. So next upgrade will be my big camera body :) I will stay in the Cannon family for that one since I have already invested in some pricey lenses. I would even have preferred Cannon for my point and shoot but they really are just too much money for a secondary play time camera.

Saturday evening we went over to Hubby's cousin's house for a nice bbq. Have I given them any blog names yet? I'm going to have to think of something... since the two of them are very reoccurring persons in our daily lives. This is the cousin that is getting married to my Maid of Honor from our wedding.. I suppose she could just be known as MOH... hmmm.. I will have to think of that one. Hubby's cousin has a nickname so it will be even harder to think of a blog name for him.  After dinner they surprised me with a nice little birthday cake. Which was really sweet of them. In previous years we have celebrated in a triple birthday bash for myself, Hubby's brother whose birthday was yesterday and Hubby's cousin whose birthday is today. But with my birthday being the Sunday and Hubby's brother not living in this town anymore we all did our own thing this year.

Sunday (My birthday) we spent a few hours in the afternoon at my pseudo Aunt D's house visiting with her and my uncle and cousin and her family. I mentioned this pesudo family in one of my earlier posts, they pretty much helped raise me since my mom was a young single mother. After a nice visit with them we went over to my moms house and had Chinese food for dinner. I finished off the leftovers today for breakfast :) yumm. While at my moms I finally found out the highly anticipated birthday surprise. If I had of been able to go there back in March for BabyG's birthday I would have known already what it was since it was a shared gift but she was good and didn't tell me. My mom got us front row seats to Cirque du Soleil's Quidam show in Ottawa :) I am super excited!! 

And now I have to go buy some groceries and enjoy the sun!  I'm going to try to leave you with a video of the trailer for the Quidam show (I've watched a few on you tube so far)

Random Thursday thoughts

Today is Thursday and do you know what that means? It means it's the start of the weekend :) Hubby is lucky enough to not work Fridays and with myself not working (well everyday is like the weekend for me ;)) the weekend starts now! (I do not know why I felt the need to have an exclamation point there, it's not that exciting...)

Lol anyways we had ourselves a nice little BBQ tonight, we have been bbqing a lot lately which is nicer than slaving away over the stove. BBQ food just tastes better. I would like to get a BBQ cookbook so I can learn how to cook a few more things, I like variety and switching things up, Hubby not so much. He would be happy with meat and potatoes every night.

My garden continues to grow, I swear everyday things are getting taller and new sprouts are making their appearance. I can't wait to be able to pick something from the garden and eat it :) maybe we can just buy a house in the country and be farmers ;) or not.

I have been trying my bestest to exercise on a daily basis, I'm not very good at it. As in I always forget or I will remember to do it but decide not to. I need some motivation and right now fitting into my clothes that are too tight just is not enough. You would think it would be but nope it's not helping any. I just don't have the willpower to go through with it. I'm thinking of maybe joining a exercise class or something like that. I figure if I join then once in the class I will complete the class... Cause that's another problem I have, I start exercising and give up way too soon. Hubby's uncle owns one of the local gyms so I can get a membership for cheap (if for anything at all), I feel like a workout buddy would be helpful too... I need to find someone. My other thought is something I saw someone else do... I could weigh myself and post my measurements for you all to see. Then continue to post updates for my progress and if you see I'm not following up then give me trouble! I'm seriously considering this one, I'm pretty sure someone I know did that on Facebook last year or so. It would be easier to do it here since you don't know me, no embarrassment.

Thursday is the day the free local newspaper is delivered (the regular one is insanely expensive), I always look forward to the paper because of all the flyers that come with it. I am a flyer junkie. Even when I have no money to spend I love to look at the flyers. I saw something real interesting in the Walmart flyer... So I thought I should share it with you... Seriously? Bathing suits for dogs? Do people really buy those?? I had a good laugh and then seriously considered buying one to make my dog wear for fun, so ya I'm sure someone else is thinking the same thing. Don't worry I'm not gonna buy one lol.

Did you watch American Idol last night? We watched it, we figured we watched every other episode that there was no point in stopping just because one of our favorites didn't make it into the top two. I was holding my breath Tuesday hoping the rumors that Haley was going to have to replace Lauren were true, but no such luck. Out of the two finalists I'm glad Scotty won, even though he kinda bores me. He was after all MiniMe's choice for the win so I decided that as a good big sister I would cheer for him too. They had the show packed full of stars that's for sure, I was pretty impressed. Do they always have that many star performances on the finale?

Oh speaking of shows, I occasionally will watch "The Talk" which has that Julie girl who hosts Big Brother on it. Anyways they were talking about reality shows and kept dropping "Big brother" into the mix. Lol just a little free advertising. It made me excited to think about that starting again soon. I think the start of July? Pretty excited :)

Oh and did you know the dollar store sells ovulation predictor kits? I knew they sold pregnancy tests.. But ovulation kits? If they work I suppose that would be a he'll of a lot cheaper than buying the big name brands. In case your wondering I did not buy any. I thought about it. Technically we are still "not trying", so buying a kit would be more towards trying. I tell ya tho this not trying is pretty stressful, I'm constantly wondering if maybe we "accidentally" conceived again and secretly hoping we did. It's driving me nuts. I didn't temp this month (I did last month cause my body has been so screwy), I'm thinking of doing it again next month tho just to keep tabs on what's happening. I'm still not convinced everything is back to normal, but I can't really do anything cause if I were to tell the doctor she would probably laugh when I tell her were not really trying but it's just a hunch.

And so aside from the fact that my birthday is in 3 days I have nothing else to ramble about. So I will leave you with this picture of our dog stealing a drink out of Hubby's freshly pour glass of water. Haha she is sneaky like that, he sat down to pet her and when he was looking out the window she snuck a sip. Once she did it once he figured why stop her and I decided to take a pic lol.

Have a good weekend everyone :)

I can't sleep

It's 1:05 am and I'm laying here in bed awake. Wide awake.
I guess that's what I get for taking a nap today. I'm so bored right now! I've looked at all my regular sites I read, creeped almost everyone on my Facebook, caught up on all my blog reading... I even took a break and tried to sleep but nothing. Hubby and the dog are hogging the bed so that's not making this any easier. I've considered going downstairs but then what would I do? If I watched tv I probably would just wake hubby and he has to get up for work in a few hours, so not a good idea.
I don't even have anything substantial to blog about since I already did my weekly summary.
Well I guess I'm gonna start randomly googling things until I get tired. Hope everyone is having sweet dreams!

Has it really been over a week since I last blogged?
I feel like the week has just flown by, yet I am not even sure of what it was I did....hmm... Lets see...

My garden after we planted it :)

Two Fridays ago hubby and I built me a little 4x2 planter box (all I did was drill 2 nails in but that counts) for my first veggie garden. I have spent almost every day checking on it and watering it when it was not raining. I planted some carrots, green onions, green peppers, snow peas, beans, chives, basil and oregano. The snow peas were the first the make an appearance, just this past Friday, only 7 days after planting I noticed 3 little sprouts poking through the soil :) yippee! I was so excited :D  and my excitement totally saved the dogs butt from trouble (the reason I noticed the sprouts was because when I went to let the dog in it became obvious she had tangled her lead around the post beside the garden and thought climbing through the garden was the best way back to the house). Today I went out to water the garden and plant a few flowers and noticed that all but the green peppers were starting to make appearances. Hopefully they keep growing :)


The man shower/ car rally we went to for Hubby's cousin last weekend was a lot of fun. I got a little bummed out when I overheard someone saying they hoped their nausea etc was pregnancy but that quickly passed as we raced around town to complete our tasks. Unfortunately my team did not win but we had fun with friends and family anyways.

Last Monday and Tuesday I had orientation shifts at my old job (the one before the most recent), it was kinda nicety be back there but at the same time made me a little sad to be taking that step backwards in my career. I made it clear to the manager that I was going to keep looking. Working in a retirement home just is not my thing, it's slow, nothing happens, all you do is give pills to people so they don't forget and then they go back to their little mini apartments for the rest of the day. I figure if a psw can take an extra course to do it then it's not for me. So the job search continues. I did get one call back from an actual nursing home, and the words they used in the message make me wonder if the experiences had are what's slowing the job search.... I've been exposed to the management world and even tho it clear in my resume I'm willing to work anything, maybe they think I'm looking for something more...

Oh well, the rest of the week was beautiful weather. It only rained over night or for brief periods and the sun came out a lot. I worked away in the back yard digging up weeds that were starting to cover the stone walk way. I tried to spent as much as I could outside.

Saturday we went over to Hubby's aunts house, which is pretty much the gathering location for family members when in town. This weekend was the annual prosciutto competition for the men and bridal shower for my former maid of honor (she's marrying Hubby's cousin). Family started arriving early in the day so we went over to meet up with them around dinner, just as Hubby's dad, brother and step sister arrived. His brother stayed at our place for the night but most of the others stayed at his Aunts, their house is pretty big I think they've had up to 20 people sleeping over if not more at a time.

Yesterday was the bridal shower. Now to clarify these bridal showers are not like the ones most people are used to. We don't sit around in someone's living room having snacks and playing games, we rent out the Italian club and have a more formal mid afternoon meal. Oh ya in case I haven't mentioned it Hubby's family is Italian. So everyone breaks out their fancy party dresses (or buys new ones) and we eat. The first one I experienced was a little weird for me but now it's normal lol and actually a lot of fun. Everyone just socializes and has a good time. The bride to be sits at the front of the room after her meal and with the help of her bridesmaids in a well thought out strategic operation opens gifts. My job was pre opening wrapping paper and passing the gifts, without the pre open it would take much too long, there were 80 people there. My bridal shower was slightly different at my request. We used the hall but played a few games and had snacks instead of a meal.

So that pretty much wraps up my week! At least highlights the key points. Today we are just taking it easy and enjoying our last day of the extended weekend (I love long holiday weekends).

Marry Me

 

"Forever can never be long enough for me
Feel like I've had long enough with you
Forget the world now we won't let them see
But there's one thing left to do 

 

Now that the weight has lifted
Love has surely shifted my way
Marry Me
Today and every day
Marry Me
If I ever get the nerve to say
Hello in this cafe
Say you will
Mm-hmm
Say you will
Mm-hmm

Together can never be close enough for me
Feel like I am close enough to you
You wear white and I'll wear out the words I love
And you're beautiful
Now that the wait is over
And love and has finally shown her my way
Marry me
Today and every day
Marry me
If I ever get the nerve to say hello in this cafe
Say you will
Mm-hmm
Say you will
Mm-hmm

 

Promise me
You'll always be
Happy by my side
I promise to
Sing to you
When all the music dies

 

 

And marry me
Today and everyday
Marry me
If I ever get the nerve to say hello in this cafe
Say you will
Mm-hmm
Say you will
Marry me
Mm-hmm"

 

Shutter Love

Today I post pictures. I have for many years enjoyed photography, in high school I took my first course, in college I maxed out my best buy card to buy the Canon Rebel xsi, and since then I regularly take "shutterbug" walks as we call them with my good friend K.

I tend to be drawn towards arches

I would LOVE to upgrade my camera in the near future as I have found myself taking photographs for friends but not too sure how distant future that will have to be.. I did ask Hubby for a new point and shoot for my birthday for those unexpected moments, my Rebel does not exactly fit into my purse. These ones are my favourites from last years shutterbug walks, I need to upgrade my software before posting the newest pics.

Anything can look interesting in black and white

Most of these were edited with a previous software which I no longer use... I have since re-edited them but have found while the quality may improve I still love these originals more. Must be a sentimental thing.

 

Random Flower

Rose from Hubby

My uncles horse (one of)

Random dandilion

The spider that lived in our balcony... no matter how many times we broke his web...

Graffiti: "I realized that i need you and i wondered if i could come home"

Ahhh summer I feel you coming

I am currently sitting out on my back deck with a giant ice water, wearing shorts and a tube top, dog at my side, listening to radio streaming thru our iPad and searching for some awesome blogs to add to my reading list. The sun is shining, it's 21 degrees ahhh practicLly perfect with the exception of the 2 wasps that I've just spotted...

Why does Jennifer hate Haley??

Seriously?? I do not understand why Jennifer simply cannot just give Haley praise for her songs... Why week after week does she have to just rip into her.

(yes this is another American idol post)

Please tell me that I am not the only one who notices that other contestants can sing shit songs and be told they were amazing, that other contestants take stupid risks with song choices and are praised. Yet Haley switches it up and is made to feel like an idiot.. I felt bad for her tonight seriously. I wanted to reach through the screen and slap Jennifer...

I feel like Randy and Jennifer have pre decided in their minds what type of singer Haley needs to be and that maybe it might not match with what she's trying to do. I think she has been doing better and better each week, I like that she is taking the risks and not singing the same thing week after week. If I could vote (Canadians can't) I would want be giving my votes to her for showing her true abilities, she switches it up with the styles without going too far away from her natural raunchy sound. For instance Scotty bores me... He is twang country that's it. Guarantee if he makes a cd all his songs are going to have the exact same sound.

Look at some of the top selling artists and long lasting artists right now, how many of them sing the exact same sound over and over again.

Whoa really unnessicary for Randy to just diss Haley like that saying the best performance of the first round was a tie between the other three... Seriously are they trying to make her cry and fuck it up? I'm once again writing as I'm watching and getting kind of mad.

Ok Round two now they love her.... Steven Tyler is consistent I think he actually likes her, the other two frustrate me. THERE WAS NOTHING WRONG WITH HER FIRST SONG!!!

So on that note my take on the final four:

Haley - In my opinion she's the best performer and vocalist left. Unique tone, seldom goes off key, passionate, hits the high notes just as good as the lows. I love her for all the same reasons I (and most others) love Adele, she's just a little more kick ass.

James - Good performer and vocalist but has pitch problems regularly. Theatrically the best. Some weeks I think he's great and others he annoys me. There is not too much depth to his voice and I think that's what I don't like at times.

Lauren - She's fairly generic, I'm confused is she a country artist or no? I feel like she's not really challenging herself and maybe too young to know yet who she really wants to be as an artist (yes I realize that I said before how I liked how Haley switches it up, but when Lauren does it I don't feel it make sense and confuses me). She's definitely a great singer but just doesn't have the wow factor for me.

Scotty - I think I already said how he bores me. Great country singer and I can understand his appeal to the fans who are more country lovers, me not so much I enjoy country to a certain degree it can't be too twangy and has to still vocally be strong enough to keep me interested. I feel post Idol he might have a hard time standing out from the crowd once the Idol fame calms.

I don't know who will go home, they are all so different it will depend on whose style has the biggest following watching Idol... My pick of who I would like to see go is Scotty.


And now I need to go watch last nights episode of The Voice, we had to pvr it cause Hubby had an allergic reaction to something and we spent the night in the ER (everything is fine)

:)

Weekend Recap

Happy Tuesday :)

I've had a fairly busy past couple of days, which is actually pretty nice since I've been bored out of my mind recently lol.

The weekend started with Friday of course since Hubby gets a 3 day weekend every day. I had a nice lunch at a nearby sushi and teppanyaki restaurant with a friend I haven't seen in a couple months. We laughed tons (both at each others stories and inability to use the chop sticks), and ate tons. It was all you can eat for $12 :) good deal.

Friday evening was spent on bridal duties! This September Hubby and I are both attendants in his cousin's wedding. His cousin's fiance was my maid of honor for our wedding, we've grown pretty close over the years. Her bridal shower is in two weeks so all the ladies got together at Hubby's aunts house and packed the fudge we all made earlier in the week. There was soo much fudge! Eight ladies making at least two batches each, one of the bridesmaids batches didn't turn out. I made three batches and had one of them not form properly.. it still tasted great but we couldn't package it. I made a mint chocolate batch (too sticky), a pink batch (bridal colour) and a chocolate marshmallow batch. :) Not bad considering I've never made fudge before. I didn't get home until after midnight on Friday, we had dinner and drinks and played a few games. It was a lot of fun.

So much fudge!

Saturday was spent cleaning up before I had to drive just over an hour to a friend's wedding reception. She had originally been married in September while still pregnant, it was a very small ceremony with a few close family members only. This weekend she had her official celebration, I think with about 100 or so people. I served as both a guest as well as the official photographer, money was tight and since I take pictures as a hobby and have the editing software I offered my services. I got the chance to see a few friends that I haven't seen in a while, it was a lot of fun. There was a little drama amongst the bridal party lol but fun.

Sunday of course was Mothers Day. Instead of us driving to see my mom at her place and her having to make dinner we offered to take her out. So we went to Montanas. My mom has celiac's disease plus a few other food interferences so Montanas is one of the few places she can actually eat. Luckily they have great food so no one was disappointed. I absolutely love their goat cheese penne. I love goat cheese in general. I think I'm going to try cooking with it, my mom claims its not that hard to do.

All in all it was a great weekend. Tiring, but lots of fun :) This weekend coming up also should have a few fun points with the grooms man shower aka car rally. Until then I will keep trying to be busy hopefully the weather will stay nice that always helps.

Happy Mothers Day

Happy Mothers Day to all the moms, especially my own :)

There is something about my mother that has always scared me (in a good way), I think it is her strength. I've always felt as though I shouldn't mess with her. She is an extremely strong woman; who through the years has faced many challenges and battles and always came out in the end on top.

Teenage pregnancy, college as a single parent, an abusive alcoholic (ex)husband, she found means to provide for her two children as a single parent again, she's raised a child with a Epilepsy and watched over and over as her daughter seized, she's helped raise her two stepdaughters (not an easy task), has taken in her mother in law after many strokes and much much more.

She's a fighter and stands up for what she believes in and for others who are not as strong. She's taken in another teen when there was nowhere else but the streets for this girl to go. She is a Social Worker, has taken years of online courses to gain all those extra fancy letters behind her name, she runs the victim services crisis program and assists the police when responding to trauma, she will show up on your door to break the news about your loved one then stay with you providing comfort and ensure you have the resources to grieve properly, she drives to Montreal once a month so she can take trapeze classes, she's taken classes in dance, fencing and almost every other random hilarious class you could imagine a mother taking, she kayaks, she is a musician and used to play and sing in a band, she is an artist, and a photographer, she is dedicated to her physical fitness and healthy living.

She has a daughter who is a nurse, and a son who got into the only chiropractic school in the province. Two children who would never have made as far as they did in life without her strength to get us through.

She's my mom, my confidant, and when needed she's my friend. Oh and according to my friend last night I quote "your lucky, your moms one real hot old chick!" haha.

Happy Mothers Day!

I just realized it was Wednesday...

I have gone most of the day thinking today was Tuesday for some reason.... Now that I realize its not I kinda feel cheated outta my Wednesday!

Anyways I have been watching my stats lately and have noticed my number of readers seem to be growing :) I feel kinda silly but that makes me happy lol

But I am wondering who are you people? I only have 3 followers whom I believe 2 are from the states, and 1 Aussie ... The rest of you are strangers.

According to my stats I have at least one reader in Canada, Germany, Denmark and Singapore! I realize these could all be random people but I invite you to follow and make yourselves known :)

And that is all for now, I need to go start dinner!

Dealing with the memories

Last night as I lay in bed trying to sleep I kept thinking about that night. This 

happens every now and then when my mind is quiet. The memories creep back 

in like a bad dream, except it wasn't a dream. What I'm remembering was real. 

It usually starts like little flashbacks that then grow into a steady stream. I try not 

to think too long because the reality of it scares me. 

 The blood - It started that day like a heavy period, this I was expecting. After 

dinner it intensified and while in the washroom realized my pad was almost full. 

I told Hubby it was time to go home. While standing in the doorway waiting for 

him it really started to come - "forget home lets go to the hospital, something’s not

right" when we got to the hospital 25 minutes later there was a puddle on the seat

of the car and my pants were soaked.   

The triage nurse - it was his first night I remember he told me that as he gathered 

all my information. He seemed slightly excited and nervous at the same time. Later 

once in my room he came back to check on me

The parade of nurses - the senior more experienced nurses took over including 

the charge nurse, I forget all their names there were too many. I barely even saw

the nurse who had been assigned to me... she was young, maybe too new to 

handle a situation like mine.

The blood - I remember the feeling of the blood just pouring out, when it first 

started I only felt it when standing, now I was laying flat on my back and it 

was like someone had turned on a facet inside me. The fear it wasn't going to stop

The IV's - There were two, one in my left wrist the other my right inner elbow. 

One failed attempt to put one in had left my left hand bruised and sore. The fluid 

going through them felt like ice cold water in my veins.  

The pain - In the begging it was like period cramps, only much stronger and then 

the contractions started. This was their first plan to stop or at least slow the bleeding,

they gave me a drug called pitocin to make my body go into contractions. The 

contractions felt like intense muscle cramping raging through my whole body. First

it was a dull ache in my lower back, which then spread around my torso to my 

lower abdomen. Eventually I could feel it in my legs, neck and arms.  

My head hurt so badly - my left side of my face and temple like they were going to 

explode, the one nurse didn't seem to know why, I think it was the contractions. 

That didn't exactly make me feel better when she didn't know, now my mind

is running wild with possibilities "what if its a blood clot?" "Am I going to die?" 

The Doctor - "If we can't stop the bleeding were going to have to go to 

the OR" and then "nurse cross her blood type in case we need a transfusion" 

followed by "call gyne we need them now" Nurse: “we already paged a stat call" 

The Gynecologist - She told me we needed to do surgery to stop the bleeding,

"nothing else is working". There were risks involved, and a possibility it wouldn’t

even work. They couldn't find a cause for the hemorrhage so far.  

Being rushed down the corridor to the OR - I've walked those halls many 

times but it was all a blur no idea where I was, it seemed like one giant blur of

a tunnel. All I saw was the flash of the lights overhead and hear the footsteps

they were in a hurry. 

Kissing Hubby goodbye before going thru the giant double doors. I 

was still scared of the pain in my head and part of me worried I would never 

see him again. He looked scared too. 

The anesthetic - they put a mask on my face "breathe deeply" the pressure 

on my throat like someone was pushing down on it. 

Saying "I'm scared my head feels funny" seconds before I was out

Waking up - I could hear before I could see - I think I may have been responding 

to questions "open your eyes" feeling foggy then crying when they told me it was over  
 

We returned home the next morning at around 4am; both of us exhausted, 

me still slightly drugged. I remained in the drugged fog for about another 

48 or so hours before finally feeling like normal again. My body ached for 

days, all of my muscles felt like they had been through an intense workout. 

I could barely walk. 

Eventually I called the people who had known and started the story of what 

happened. 

Blah

Before I start I want to say I apologize if I am a downer lately. 

I feel like April has just been a shit month. I actually feel like 

this year in general has been a roller coaster that bottoms out 

real fast and low. 
 
I'm bored, all the time. How people manage to stay home and play 

housewife is a mystery to me. I can't do it. Well maybe I could if 

I had chose to do it, but not like this. 
 
I find myself spending the morning sleeping in, I then wake up play 

with the dog and eat something (usually toast with peanut butter), 

after I've eaten I check the job boards, maybe send out a resume if 

there's something there.  Then I look around and decide what to 

clean that day. Our home isn't that big, there's not a lot to clean 

and if I don't clean something that day hubby tends to get crabby 

(in his mind if I'm home all day I could at least perfect my 

housewife skills) 
 
I've found this time off work is really testing my friendships with 

"work" friends. Even tho the facility just opened in October I had 

worked with a group of the employees at my previous job.  Out of 

this group I only have really talked too and seen one of these 

people. Since when did getting laid off become a contagious illness? 

I feel like I've been shunned which only adds insult to injury. 
 
Point is I'm bored. And I'm lonely. And I feel like with all this 

time on my hands I could and should blog more but don't due to not 

wanting to post downer posts each day, also I'm often at a lack or 

words, or the urge to blog is at the wrong times. For example right 

now I'm writing this post on the notepad on my blackberry and will 

post later. I would just do the mobile blogging except my phone is 

with koodo and apparently they don't support it.