16 weeks/ first trimester recap

* I know my first trimester ended a few weeks ago but I've been lazy and hadn't gotten around to doing a recap so hereit is combined with my 16 week update.

how far along?
16 weeks today :)

total weight gain?
I don't check regularly, but at my last appointment (2 weeks ago) I had gained a total of 6lbs. I might start tracking weekly on my own...the thought scares me

stretch marks?
None so far! I've started using bio oil since I've popped out so much these past few weeks. I know it's mostly genetics but I'm not taking any chances.

sleep?
It's getting better. We did recently purchase a king size posturepedic bed so that could have something to do with it ;). For a while I was sleeping for 2-3hour stretchs having to pee quite often.

best moment this week
Since I haven't done weekly posts how about best so far. That probably would be our ultrasounds and being told that little heart was beating :) such a relief.

worst moment this week
So far the worst moment was week 5 (or was it 6) when the spotting started and rushing to the ER because it was getting heavier and cramping.

movement?
No definite movement yet but we did put music and headphones on my belly last weekend and during that time I felt queasy butterfly sensations in my stomach. Hopefully I will feel something more definite soon. I'm terrified and eagerly awaiting it.

cravings?
I haven't had crazy cravings where I want weird things, or where I am making hubby go out and buynthings randomly. I kind of expected I would but not so far. However I am easily influenced by the power of suggestion, if I see someone eating something or hear someone talking about something therE is a good chance I will want it later. But that later could be days later, somfar I'm still acting sane. Two things I've noticed that I love lately are fresh tomatoes and gravy (not together) I could probably have them every day and love it.

gender?
We booked out anatomy ultrasound for October 18th :) hopefully the little one will cooperate and show us the goods ;)

labour signs?
Thank goodness nothing so far and we hope to keep it that way until March!

belly button?
My uterus appears to be high and at my 12 week ultrasound the technician barely went more than an inch below my belly button. To my surprise about a week later after much convincing from hubby I discovered I needed to take my belly button ring out! So early! I was shocked! But it turns out my belly button had relocated itself about an inch higher than normal and had started changing shape. It continues to change as time goes on and currently the top on the button hole (is that what it's called? lol) is started to push out and getting more shallow already.

symptoms?
Well we are improving and I have been pretty lucky but here are the symptoms I've experienced so far: lots of headaches, lots of heartburn, slight upset stomach at times (I wouldn't even call it nausea), frequent trips to the bathroom to pee(this has settled and no longer a problem), sore to touch boobies and nipples (some days are fine), oh and more recently I think my nipples have grown in size... I'm too scared to inspect this closer. I had a lot of bloat in the beginning, some episodes of constipation, and of course my rapidly growing belly.
Now that looks like a good list but it's not it was everything all the time, some days I feel perfectly fine, and others I get one or two of the above mentioned. Heartburn and headaches have been by far my biggest nemesis.

dreams?
Weird. That describes them. Also random. I've been having a lot of night terrors, and a lot of realistic dreams where when I wake up I don't realize it was a dream, those are mostly scary as well. Oh but the other night I had a silly dream where I was in a video game and people I knew where floating bubbles I had to jump on for points lol.

mood?
Generally happy but easily irritated.

other emotions?
I have moments of fear and anxiety. Fear about this dream crashing down as well as fear and anxiety about giving birth.

what I miss?
So far I haven't really had any moments where I actually miss anything. I look forward to having sushi again, and celebrating with some drinks but I get by just fine without them.

what I'm looking forward to?
Short term.. Finding out what were having! :) long term is getting to hold this baby :)

After 16 years....

This is going to be short because I'm still trying to digest the possibility. I needed to say something to someone and really right now you guys are my only option.

My mom is away on the coast of British Columbia floating down the ocean in a kayak with the whales.

She has been gone since Friday.

My step sister G casually mentioned to me today that there was a big fight before she left and that my stepdad has been packing his stuff preparing to leave.

So I called my step dad today to touch base, my mom is gone for the week and he's home with two teenage girls and his sick mother. I figured I'd better check in and make sure they are all eating.

Well I wasn't prepared for it but he broke down on the phone. He's basically desperate enough at this point with the outcome of their relationship that of all people he started pouring his heart out to me. All his fears, his concerns, and his failed attempts to fix the sinking ship that is their relationship.

It doesn't look good. I don't known her story and I never will I'm sure because my mom won't talk about any of those things. But from what he's said and what I know about my mom it sounds like she's given up and if it ends it's her doing.

I'm sitting her numb. Thinking about my family breaking up. I've been through this before 17 years ago but somehow I think this feeling is worse as an adult. Here I am happily planning my next year with my baby and there's a very good chance this baby won't get to be a part of these people's lives.

I'm devastated right now.

Waiting in limbo.

Long weekend recap

Long weekends. Love them. Despite the fact that recently our long weekends seem to be booked solid with events. No resting and relaxation for us. This one was no exception.

This Saturday MOH married hubby's cousin :) it was a beautiful day lots of smiles and love all around.

The celebrations began Thursday with the redecorating of the hall, followed by more decorating Friday, manicures and pedicures for the ladies while the men were golfing. Rehearsal was Friday evening followed by food and drinks at Hubby's aunt and uncles house.

Saturday was busy! Hair and makeup bright and early! Btw I don't wear much makeup and am kicking myself for not getting a good pic of how amazing my face looked! Seriously! I've never had makeup done that good before! It was supposed to rain but the sun was hot all day. We had so much fun.

Hubby had informed me that people were congratulating him at the church... Which is odd because we had not announced anything worth congratulating. At the hall the same happened to me. It became obvious we had a leak. We didn't want to be a distraction during someone else's wedding. Family didn't see it that way as Hubby's uncle (father of the groom) announced our pregnancy for us during his speech!!! I was soo embarrassed. Relieved it was out there since 90% of the family appeared to already know but still embarrassed. Apparently those who hadn't heard were already wondering because I am showing and am usually quite thin. When I gain 5 pounds it is noticable. They noticed.

So our announcement was made a day earlier than planned. Not too sure yet how MOH felt about that... Everyone else felt it was another reason to celebrate... She has been funny with all the wedding stress anyway so I've had a difficult time figuring her out lately.

I have a few fun pictures to share but I'll do that in a day or so. My mother in law is here visiting for the week.

Hope everyone had a great weekend :)

I'm quickly becoming the worst blogger ever!

I'm awful lazy these days.
I think about blogging, but then I never actually do it.
Not that I have all sorts of exciting things going on but I'm sure there's something I could tell you about.

So today I'm blogging.

Recap of the past few weeks. Work, work and more work. Yup that sums it up. Not exciting.
I did have an interview for a new job, fingers crossed that works out. I didn't tell them I was pregnant, I figure I'll mention it after the offer me the job.

We had that birthday BBQ for hubby. Low key fun with the cousins.

Our neighbours are almost ready to move so we have now inherited a fence which Hubby put together last week as well as a dishwasher. Two major scores there. Crappy about them leaving though, they were the only neighbours we actually talk to regularly.

MOH's bachlorette Party was this past Saturday. It was just a simple girls night with booze, and dirty games and prizes. Out of the guests there were 3  heavy drinkers, 1 casual drinker, 3 non drinkers and 1 fake drinker (me). I pulled off the fake drinking really well no one suspected anything, I did have a little help from girl cousin. I had to confide in her about the pregnancy cause I needed help then and will again this Saturday for the wedding.

Sunday Hubby and I traveled to Toronto to the amphitheater to see Incubus in concert. Great show, always is, and no this isn't our first time going to see them. Incubus was Hubby's favourite band when I met him and I at the time hated them by association to someone I highly disliked. But I caved and started actually listening to them and instantly was hooked. I even agreed to dance to an Incubus song as our first dance at the wedding. 

Monday had some exciting news for a few people. Girl cousin had her ultrasound and found out she is having a girl and a boy :) which brings the 2012 baby count up to 2 boys and 1 girl. Maybe we can add another girl with ours and round out the numbers. Hubby thinks we're having a girl.

Monday was also exciting for us. More me than Hubby unfortunatly since he was not able to get out of work... :( but my mom came to town and accompanied me to my ultrasound. And there on the screen was our little 12w1d baby all shaped like a baby! Heart thumping away at 166 beats per minute. I feel so relieved. We will be telling the rest of the family after the wedding this weekend and then the rest of the world shortly after that.

And on that note I will leave you for now with a picture. I have to go get ready cause I'm meeting a friend at 10.

ultrasound @ 12 weeks

little bump forming @ 11weeks

I'm sick :(

I hope everyone had a great weekend! :)

We had a little BBQ birthday celebration here for Hubby on Friday night, just a few people, girl cousin, her husband and her two brothers along with their spouses. Of course Hubby and I were there and his brother too. My meat aversion apparently includes the turkey burgers we bought... Luckily we had been snacking all afternoon so I just played it off as being full since none of them "know" about the pregnancy yet (the girls might suspect).

Saturday night I worked again. This week I have worked 5 out of the 6 shifts I was scheduled for, the 6th was supposed to be tonight, but I'm sick.

My head feels like it's triple the size, my nose is stuffed but burning and I have a funny taste in my mouth. Last night while at work I had a fever and kinda felt like I was going to either be sick or pass out. So tonight I stayed home.

I have the next 3 days off but it looks like i'll be spending them in bed :( blah.

Hope everyone had a great weekend. I'm too tired to read blogs so I'll catch up tomorrow.

Its been a while

I sorta just didn't want to post for a bit there.
I've quietly been reading your blogs, or at least trying to keep up and commenting occasionally when I felt inspired to do so... some posts I had comments for and then was just too lazy to say anything. Sorry about that. Ive been a terrible blog friend.  :(

I feel like the past 2 weeks have been a blur. Almost like Ive been sleeping the whole time ( I definitely have been tired enough),  I've been pretty much zombie waiting for the days to pass. I can't wait for August to be over and hopefully be making an announcement to the rest of our family and friends. I think my zombie state is my way of not getting too excited but also not dwelling on my fears. kinda a zombie coping method lol.

I have a doctors appointment tomorrow and I'm pretty much demanding regular blood work the next few weeks and want to know when my next ultrasound is. I need reassurance, there's no denying it at this point.

Now onto the good things.

My boobs still hurt. lol not all the time (which of course worries me) but quite regularly. Like this morning for instance I went to put on my bra and as the fabric rubbed across my nipples I almost let out a little yelp. And yes I'm counting this as good. lol

I kinda, just kinda a little bit may be showing. Its undecided yet if its the bloat still or more, my mother in law thinks its a bump and I'm starting to think she may be right since it seems to be there all the time. The bloating has always come and gone with meals etc. She took a picture this past weekend so I will get it from her and post it later.


Nausea comes and goes with the bloat mostly. Ive been taking my nausea pills which seem to help and are possibly working to keep the actual nausea at bay. The only exception is last week I forgot to take them and felt horrid the whole next day... this also could have been food poisoning, I'm not the best cook.  lol

And as for non pregnancy things (because I really need to get in the habit of writing about other things more)...

My veggie garden is fried. We managed to get a few snow peas, a couple green beans, and a couple carrots out of it but I think the heat and lack of rain has pretty much doomed it. I water it was much as I can but its just not helping. All in all not a total failure.

I think I quite possibly may lose my money in our big brother pool soon. Remember me being so excited for it to start? lol well I paid my  $10 and got Danielle as my player, I was pretty psyched at first but I think Kalia may screw it all up for me this week and I'm gonna be out my money soon. I had such high hopes lol.

My brother in law is visiting for the week... more on that after he leaves...

and that's pretty much it. all in a nutshell. I will be back sooner than later :)


Oh and today I am 9 weeks 3 days pregnant. Heres that ultrasound from 7w3d.

156 bpm :)

Today has been a good day :)

My ultrasound went much better than last time. I could tell immediately that that the image on the screen was what it was supposed to be. It looked so different last time. The technician was actually the same one as we had before but I doubt she remembered us.
She started doing her measurements right away and telling us exactly what she was doing (which she didn't do last time) And the heart beat was there at 156 :) yay the little beans heart is still thumping away. I feel so relieved.

I got some pictures this time too which was nice, I will scan them later and post them at the end of the week. I think I will do a weekly post (seems to be the trend).

She said I was measuring right on track at 7w3d and confirmed my due date as March 11.

Hubby and I have decided to tell our parents this evening. We were gonna wait to tell his til we see them again in 2 weeks but he wants to tell them now and I'm ok with that.

I'm gonna go nap now cause I slept horribly, and didn't fall asleep til at least 1am! Despite my attempt at an early night lol

Oh and ps there was only 1 little one there ;)