16 weeks/ first trimester recap

* I know my first trimester ended a few weeks ago but I've been lazy and hadn't gotten around to doing a recap so hereit is combined with my 16 week update.

how far along?
16 weeks today :)

total weight gain?
I don't check regularly, but at my last appointment (2 weeks ago) I had gained a total of 6lbs. I might start tracking weekly on my own...the thought scares me

stretch marks?
None so far! I've started using bio oil since I've popped out so much these past few weeks. I know it's mostly genetics but I'm not taking any chances.

sleep?
It's getting better. We did recently purchase a king size posturepedic bed so that could have something to do with it ;). For a while I was sleeping for 2-3hour stretchs having to pee quite often.

best moment this week
Since I haven't done weekly posts how about best so far. That probably would be our ultrasounds and being told that little heart was beating :) such a relief.

worst moment this week
So far the worst moment was week 5 (or was it 6) when the spotting started and rushing to the ER because it was getting heavier and cramping.

movement?
No definite movement yet but we did put music and headphones on my belly last weekend and during that time I felt queasy butterfly sensations in my stomach. Hopefully I will feel something more definite soon. I'm terrified and eagerly awaiting it.

cravings?
I haven't had crazy cravings where I want weird things, or where I am making hubby go out and buynthings randomly. I kind of expected I would but not so far. However I am easily influenced by the power of suggestion, if I see someone eating something or hear someone talking about something therE is a good chance I will want it later. But that later could be days later, somfar I'm still acting sane. Two things I've noticed that I love lately are fresh tomatoes and gravy (not together) I could probably have them every day and love it.

gender?
We booked out anatomy ultrasound for October 18th :) hopefully the little one will cooperate and show us the goods ;)

labour signs?
Thank goodness nothing so far and we hope to keep it that way until March!

belly button?
My uterus appears to be high and at my 12 week ultrasound the technician barely went more than an inch below my belly button. To my surprise about a week later after much convincing from hubby I discovered I needed to take my belly button ring out! So early! I was shocked! But it turns out my belly button had relocated itself about an inch higher than normal and had started changing shape. It continues to change as time goes on and currently the top on the button hole (is that what it's called? lol) is started to push out and getting more shallow already.

symptoms?
Well we are improving and I have been pretty lucky but here are the symptoms I've experienced so far: lots of headaches, lots of heartburn, slight upset stomach at times (I wouldn't even call it nausea), frequent trips to the bathroom to pee(this has settled and no longer a problem), sore to touch boobies and nipples (some days are fine), oh and more recently I think my nipples have grown in size... I'm too scared to inspect this closer. I had a lot of bloat in the beginning, some episodes of constipation, and of course my rapidly growing belly.
Now that looks like a good list but it's not it was everything all the time, some days I feel perfectly fine, and others I get one or two of the above mentioned. Heartburn and headaches have been by far my biggest nemesis.

dreams?
Weird. That describes them. Also random. I've been having a lot of night terrors, and a lot of realistic dreams where when I wake up I don't realize it was a dream, those are mostly scary as well. Oh but the other night I had a silly dream where I was in a video game and people I knew where floating bubbles I had to jump on for points lol.

mood?
Generally happy but easily irritated.

other emotions?
I have moments of fear and anxiety. Fear about this dream crashing down as well as fear and anxiety about giving birth.

what I miss?
So far I haven't really had any moments where I actually miss anything. I look forward to having sushi again, and celebrating with some drinks but I get by just fine without them.

what I'm looking forward to?
Short term.. Finding out what were having! :) long term is getting to hold this baby :)

After 16 years....

This is going to be short because I'm still trying to digest the possibility. I needed to say something to someone and really right now you guys are my only option.

My mom is away on the coast of British Columbia floating down the ocean in a kayak with the whales.

She has been gone since Friday.

My step sister G casually mentioned to me today that there was a big fight before she left and that my stepdad has been packing his stuff preparing to leave.

So I called my step dad today to touch base, my mom is gone for the week and he's home with two teenage girls and his sick mother. I figured I'd better check in and make sure they are all eating.

Well I wasn't prepared for it but he broke down on the phone. He's basically desperate enough at this point with the outcome of their relationship that of all people he started pouring his heart out to me. All his fears, his concerns, and his failed attempts to fix the sinking ship that is their relationship.

It doesn't look good. I don't known her story and I never will I'm sure because my mom won't talk about any of those things. But from what he's said and what I know about my mom it sounds like she's given up and if it ends it's her doing.

I'm sitting her numb. Thinking about my family breaking up. I've been through this before 17 years ago but somehow I think this feeling is worse as an adult. Here I am happily planning my next year with my baby and there's a very good chance this baby won't get to be a part of these people's lives.

I'm devastated right now.

Waiting in limbo.

Long weekend recap

Long weekends. Love them. Despite the fact that recently our long weekends seem to be booked solid with events. No resting and relaxation for us. This one was no exception.

This Saturday MOH married hubby's cousin :) it was a beautiful day lots of smiles and love all around.

The celebrations began Thursday with the redecorating of the hall, followed by more decorating Friday, manicures and pedicures for the ladies while the men were golfing. Rehearsal was Friday evening followed by food and drinks at Hubby's aunt and uncles house.

Saturday was busy! Hair and makeup bright and early! Btw I don't wear much makeup and am kicking myself for not getting a good pic of how amazing my face looked! Seriously! I've never had makeup done that good before! It was supposed to rain but the sun was hot all day. We had so much fun.

Hubby had informed me that people were congratulating him at the church... Which is odd because we had not announced anything worth congratulating. At the hall the same happened to me. It became obvious we had a leak. We didn't want to be a distraction during someone else's wedding. Family didn't see it that way as Hubby's uncle (father of the groom) announced our pregnancy for us during his speech!!! I was soo embarrassed. Relieved it was out there since 90% of the family appeared to already know but still embarrassed. Apparently those who hadn't heard were already wondering because I am showing and am usually quite thin. When I gain 5 pounds it is noticable. They noticed.

So our announcement was made a day earlier than planned. Not too sure yet how MOH felt about that... Everyone else felt it was another reason to celebrate... She has been funny with all the wedding stress anyway so I've had a difficult time figuring her out lately.

I have a few fun pictures to share but I'll do that in a day or so. My mother in law is here visiting for the week.

Hope everyone had a great weekend :)